I thank God every day that my parents were the ones who initially got involved with the Team of Leaders way back in the day. With the tragedies I faced very early in life, I turned into an extremely pessimistic, angsty teenager. I inundated my brain with suicidal music lyrics, surrounded myself with depressing dead-beat of friends, and got caught up in a very destructive relationship. I was thoroughly convinced that my parents were stupid ( I would have used a more harsh word back then, but the moderators would most certainly not permit this post if I were to say what was on my mind then. ) and they got signed up in some weird, cultish pyramid scheme. A lot of books and cds have helped my attitude since then, but I saw everything wrong with everyone. I accused Orrin of being some huge con artist and I was the the one sane person in a crowd of tens of thousands of people. It took me two majors to finally just be "okay" with everyone. I got in for all the wrong reasons, wanting to manipulate people so I could make money off them. I remember approaching the first top 5 book I read, how to have power and confidence in dealing with people by Les Giblin, and I thought "Sweet! I'm going to learn how to control people!" Haha.
I've come a long way since then. I became responsible for my life and my emotions and I choked down the harsh truth for a person with a very, deeply embedded victem's lens, I think first stated by Steven Covey, or requoted at least in Seven Habits of Highly Effective People: "Between stimulus and response, there lies choice." I was miserable because I chose to be.
It's my mission now to find the guy who was just like me, the guy who hated the world and who wanted to end it all, at times. I want to find that guy, and pull him out of the mire, just like Jesus Christ and the LIFE organization did for me.